I am finally home in the world of dinky cyber cafes and creepy guys looking at my computer screens and even sending me invites if they could guess my id.I don't know why there are no more cabins in net.So my all creative energies are gone.I got charged with latest comments and wanted to update it.

 Nowadays i am finding accomodation in Noida,As i realized that it is impossible to study at home.Quite tough task.You have to take care of various parameters like cost,comfort,security,Distance from metro etc ect and optimize each of them.

Well no matter how much i ve tried not to become an engineer but my linguistic and logicistic pattern predict that i think quite much like an engineer soon going to be MBA.

 Well time is running fast and i have to pay for it soo byee...

My goals for this year...

      This is my last post from my free college wi fi.I am leaving hostel by tomorrow out of pressure of my mom to come home (finally).She asked me so badly what was so important that kept me away from my home that i had to give up and agree to come back to where i belong.So all is over now.So called my best carefree days of my life.
   I got a call from my company for joining but i had to refuse them as i have other plans.It was tough and heart breaking when i had to break my promise to HR that i'll join that company.You see i want to me woman of words.Well one always have to make compromises in life i guess.
  No need to say that i am really sad leaving so many memories behind but it is indespensible.So to cheer myself up i am setting some goals for myself to finish in this academic year (starting from july) 

    

1.  I will crack CAT and make to some decent college with my sweetheart.

2.  I'll learn a new foreign language probably spanish or french before i take admission in college.


3.If possible i'll go for a month or two in BPO to improve my accent and vocals and obviously some money.


4.I will learn driving finally.I have this strange fear of roads and cars.I always feel i am not responsible and sensible enough to drive.But i'll have to overcome this and learn


  I know it is stupid but nothing seems to cheer me up (Yes not even these colours and fonts).  


For now i ve pack my bags go to roof and wound up all the memories i collected all over the time of four years.
  It's strange that for past four years i ve desperately waited to get this over.I can't believe that i am feeling so ravished.But then the time that i spent in my last year was quality time with right type of friends and right type of attitude.


 I know this blog may bore you or all of others blogs too,In any case i'll never get to know.I am upset enough to be crazy and disoriented.
  I don't know when i'll right next so untill then 


 Bye... 

Lessons in social behaviour..

      It was either my sheer ignorance or lack of curious attitude or lack of people around me that i never got to understand or say in other words got along with them.Somehow i believed that miracle friends will show up and i'll live happily ever after with them.How to manage a love relationship was the first thing i learnt from my boyfriend.He taught me to love a person despite of her shortcomings of course by example.But i never realized same rule applied to friendship as well.


  You have to stick around despite of various dissapointments ,show downs and other heart breaking things.I never realized this simple fact and quit at the first disagreeable things happened.I am not wrong if i say i was a social retard.I was just trying to prove everyone that i am absolutely independent and don't need anybody. On the other hand i never met people who understood me better and tried to prove me wrong.They either made fun of it or discarded it outright terribly hurting me in the process which in turn pushed me further into my shell.
      Some of other rules i learnt are..

1. One has to maintain a respectful distance while trying to help or advice someone.You might step on his ego or even look like a complete fool pushing your way on him.(P.S. It doesn't matter if you are right).
2. Always keep your weak or vulnerable point of views to yourself.You might not be able to prove yourself right or may get hurt in the process
3. When the other person is aggressive or possessive about some point of view(P.S. It doesn't matter if you are right.)  it's better to be as quite or at least polite.In this case "Speech is silver and silence is golden..".
4. Everyone yes everyone think he or she is always right so don't prove them wrong. (P.S. It doesn't matter if you are right.) 
5.  Keep on learning new things by your conduct with others and others conduct with you.Trust me you discover how does a particular behaviour feels.
6. Always try to find out your compatible company  like some of us like to be dominated while others like to be leader.
7. Keep a tight vigile on your attitude too.You must not be too bossy, too meek ,too smart, too quite or too verbose.In most cases "too much" much of anything will b critisized.
8. Most important learn to judge people and then show then their rightful places.In your heart or on your shoes heels.
9. Yes... in every case be yourself.Or you'll become frustrated  as time will pass and bubble will burst.
10. Last one ..no one likes a arrogant or self conscious person.No matter how much highly you think of yourself other person might not agree with you

    Well i am still a amateur and just started my lessons in social behaviour .For so many years i thought books were my best friends but you can't go shopping with books or chat up with them.So better keep your friends beside.Untill then i'll try to be a agreeable personality...

Eveteasing..small town attitude and big town mentality..

    When i was in Bijnore, teasing was quite common.Any body saying anything seemed quite normal.Being a girl in small town all of it came as part of it.You can't escape it and you can't oppose it.You had to be silent and pretend as if nothing happened.This was a sure shot method advised to me to keep the further attention away.I being scared of  further targeting by them i kept quite and at times i even got worried if comments extended for time being or someone followed up.If someone commented i was glad he didn't touched and if someone touched i was content that he didn't followed and if he did i soothed myself that he won't continue.Things never took off further than this.There was palpable deep rooted belief that if we did something about it the guy was going to react aggressively and it was assumed that this was something we could never afford.So best reaction was to be passive and calm.


    Well things changed when i came to Noida.There were creepy people in buses, in autos on roads.Out of fear i abstained travelling much going out in a group only and at limited hours.Soon my adventurous streak took over and limited hours began extending.Those days if someone said or did anything i started feeling contempt and disgust.There were times i badly want to strike back but i never did out of fear.Next two years were spent planning to react.Then the pinnacle came.


  I was at sec 37 looking for buses to go pari chowk noida.No yellow buses were there and for some unknown reason limited buses were making me run.So i was just standing when i saw a man coming but i also noticed that his path of motion as entirely parallel to mine.But as he approached he made a diagonal cut and collided to me.Without thinking much i turned back grabbed him by collar and planted a punch on his face.Being stunned he asked why and and i answered back angrily.After that everyone on road treated me specially no one even dared to cross my path.Everyone kept a circumference of space around me.It made me feel like a queen.


  And now i don't let anyone misbehaving with me or fellow girls. 


   I strongly feel that one should react as it would discourage them from this cheap form of entertainment.This is the one of the step to bring safety to travelling women.These goons should't feel that they could do anything and get away.These small incidents of speaking up saves the victim a mental trauma and sometimes even harsher consequences. 

End of college days

  College days are almost over with exams finished and project finishing tomorrow.Everything seems so uncertain so vague.Yet i am happy.Even if it's just for a change.Finally despite of everything transpired in my life over past 4 years.Four years of numerous let downs, frustrations, stupid toxic friends, unforgivable mistakes are finally over.Well  i did learnt many unforgettable lessons but the best part is that i have everything in my kitty now.One amazing love of a life time boyfriend,Three best friends with one guy included, a decent placement and all my feelings and logics at right places.
 One gets to know so much about other people,the rules of the world and most importantly finding yourself.
  I have nothing to say that is not already written and to be exact i am not feeling nostalligic.It's unusual but i am more excited to get outside and face the real world.Things i wanted to get when i entered the college are with me now.The purpose of my college years is over.No need for a college hangover.....