Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Monday, February 14, 2011
more fears...
I recently gave first exam in life for which i actually studied for a considerable amount of time investing hard work and effort.Even though for a few days.And before those few days , few more days for getting frustrated for not studying and banging my head against wall for it or better sleeping for 12 to 15 hours a days and convincing myself i am not actually preparing for it.Well one day i gave up and freed myself from the tedious exercise opening the book and sitting(actually sleeping) around it till i decided to something better with my time like cooking or cleaning or entertainment.And the next day i magically got all the dedication and motivation for studying.Well leave it i am not writing about that....
My motive to write is to discuss my fears.Two or three days b4 i started wondering what if my calculator's battery die on the very day.I was so scared that i contemplated carrying a extra cell with screw driver to change it.I even asked for extra calculator from my friend who reminded me when was the last time i actually heard of someone getting new cell for his vital numerical device.I found it very logical and calmed myself down.
Very soon i discovered new fear on not reaching exam on time.I slept at 12 ensuring total 6 alarms in my cell out of which 3 were for 4 o clock and other were for 5,6 and 7 just in case i didn't hear one i'll be still in time to reach my center.Despite of my sleeping for less than 8 hours from past 3 days i still got up at 3 o clock all by myself and then waited for the morning to come.
Well more fears but i feel the blog is getting too boring so i would just write about my next fear.Now when the exam is over and i found out i am getting respectable marks i am fearing if i wrote my roll number and name right you know just in case.Till 15 march i'll keep my fingers crossed.
P.S.- I am yet to get behind the steering or handle to overcome my fear of driving.And the my bf rides his cbz extreme i am soon going to suffer from fear of sitting on a vehicle or a bike at least...
My motive to write is to discuss my fears.Two or three days b4 i started wondering what if my calculator's battery die on the very day.I was so scared that i contemplated carrying a extra cell with screw driver to change it.I even asked for extra calculator from my friend who reminded me when was the last time i actually heard of someone getting new cell for his vital numerical device.I found it very logical and calmed myself down.
Very soon i discovered new fear on not reaching exam on time.I slept at 12 ensuring total 6 alarms in my cell out of which 3 were for 4 o clock and other were for 5,6 and 7 just in case i didn't hear one i'll be still in time to reach my center.Despite of my sleeping for less than 8 hours from past 3 days i still got up at 3 o clock all by myself and then waited for the morning to come.
Well more fears but i feel the blog is getting too boring so i would just write about my next fear.Now when the exam is over and i found out i am getting respectable marks i am fearing if i wrote my roll number and name right you know just in case.Till 15 march i'll keep my fingers crossed.
P.S.- I am yet to get behind the steering or handle to overcome my fear of driving.And the my bf rides his cbz extreme i am soon going to suffer from fear of sitting on a vehicle or a bike at least...
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